I have always been the one who loaned money to a person who really needed it, even if it was a odd situation. Friends and family who ended up in a hard place were always covered, if I could give it.  Funny thing is if I ever ended up in a situation similar to there's or worse. I never expected any kind of hand out. Still don't. Funny thing is I was never offered the same common courtesy. 

I have never really had many finical struggles. I'm only 27, and have been doing just fine. But there will be a time and a place I will screw things up. Cancer and a wedding has kind of done that, with a few other things that are minor; but when you combine them, it can get pretty scary.

So none the less, my credit scores are not as great as it was five years ago, but who cares. I will work through it and fight  with every tooth and nail, and filter it all back in to shape.

I DON'T EXPECT  ANYTHING FROM ANYONE.  (Unless your up for advice.)

I just want the world to stop thinking I can be walked all over. It's not happening folks. Try it,  I will more then likely walk away, fallow me, and I will chew your head off. I can be a real bitch when I want to, I just enjoy not being one all the time.

I have always had to start at the bottom and work my way up. I never really got everything I WANTED, I always had to work for it. That is what I was taught. I also know I will never get everything I want. (We only want things we can't have.)

I am the oldest of seven siblings, and the oldest of eight-teen grandchildren. I was raised by my mother, who did her best with four kids and two ex-husbands (who barley paid child support), and my father really had little to do with my life, except  for giving me three other siblings. otherwise I'm lucky to get a phone call from him on my Birthday. (which is very rare.)

I have been Independent since I was fourteen, and on my own since I was twenty. I still have to prove to my mother I'm okay, even after being married for over a year, but as she puts it I am her "First Born" and she does get to spazz about me growing up. (Just waite till I have kids...scary)

I have lived a hard life, I had fun along the way, but it was hard. I had to grow up faster then I wanted too at some parts, and others were not so fast. It's funny how most people view me as being older then I really am, with all the knowledge and experiences I have had in such a short time. I still have much to learn and lots to do, I just have an "Old Soul" as I call it.

So it will work out some way, some how. It always does. It may not be the way I want it to, or in the time I think it should be in, but it always ends for the best. That is all I can hope for.

I'm a fighter, I will succeed with what ever life throws at me, just look at every thing I have accomplished, lived through, and grown stronger from.

Don't call us...The phones are disconnected. I am so suing Audit & Adjustment Co. Inc. For all this BS! They will wish they never met me. They are in a load of Fucking Hurt!

 I am done packing for the day! Need More Boxes, and News Paper, or this packing thing is not happening. Will have to grab some boxes I saved up at work, and drag them home on Monday. But what will I do tomorrow? I still need to pack up more stuff!
*Ponder, ponder, Ponder.*

Started packing the master bedroom, made some progress, but am still stressed out over legal stuff, hoping it will all work out. I'm tired of having such a good life, then having a wrench get thrown back in to the works, after it's was fixed the last thirty million times.

When can I stop looking over my shoulder, and worrying about past things that have been laid to rest?  Stop coming back to life and screwing with my present, and future life!

Die evil beings, Die! You have no power here, go away or you will wish you never met me. I'm not a sane person when I get angry! (Just ask my PO.)

So the landlord at our current house, has decided to do a walk through tomorrow. the fucked up part is that the walk through is for someone interested in renting the place after we move. So the house is a mess of boxes, and such; and there is someone showing up between 12 and 2pm to see my messed up house, because the stupid landlord can't waite until we move out on the 20th, then clean. WTF? We are not pleased!

I still have it! No working register, and yet I pull off a $400 sale. Go Me! My Monday, may suck balls, but I'm rolling in the dough! =) In you face (work) computer, I win!

 If you want to come this Thursday, we are hitting SAM, for it's Free monthly opening to the public. We will be meeting at my work, down at Pike Place Market, around 6:15ish. (I close so there) We are also Looking at hitting the Paramount for there Free tours, this Saturday at 10am. Come Join Us, we would love to see you.

Got to work this morning to a DEAD computer. Can't clock in, can't ring sales. I get to do it the old fashion way, hand write everything, on the plus side the credit card machine still works fine, but it's going to be a pain in the butt to try and figure out what goes to the bank and what stays in the till. Go Beckie, for putting off a dieing computer, until it died.

 I just spent four hours watching the first disc of Kingdom Hospital. It rocks, the sad part is, it's way to slow at work, I just might start the second disc. I love my job! =)

Now I lay me down not to sleep
I just get tangled in the sheets
I swim in sweat three inches deep
I just lay back and claim defeat

Chapter read and lesson learned
I turned the lights off while she burned
So while she's three hundred degrees
I throw the sheets off and I freeze

Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around

Who needs sleep?
well you're never gonna get it
Who needs sleep?
tell me what's that for
Who needs sleep?
be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War

My hands are locked up tight in fists
My mind is racing, filled with lists
of things to do and things I've done
Another sleepless night's begun

Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around

Who needs sleep?
well you're never gonna get it
Who needs sleep?
tell me what's that for
Who needs sleep?
be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War

Who needs sleep?
well you're never gonna get it
Who needs sleep?
tell me what's that for
Who needs sleep?
be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War

There's so much joy in life,
so many pleasures all around
But the pleasure of insomnia
is one I've never found
With all life has to offer,
there's so much to be enjoyed
But the pleasures of insomnia
are ones I can't avoid

Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around

Hala Hala Hala

Who needs sleep?
well you're never gonna get it
Who needs sleep?
tell me what's that for
Who needs sleep?
be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War

[Repeat]

Song: Who Needs Sleep?
Artist: Barenaked Ladies

 Deposit has been paid, credit check has been done, the only thing we need to do, is verify everyone's pay stubs, and then I think we got the house. +P

So we think we have found the perfect house. We apped for it yesterday, and Brian will be heading over to the property managers office on monday with the deposit check for $200. We are hoping to hear by Tuesday, weather or not they excepted out credit check.  Here is hoping!
If it all works out, we start the move. =)

The house is amazing, 1200 square feet, three bedrooms,a large bath, a utility/mud room, tons of cubby holes, it has a privet drive, and a huge back yard. Yes, my friends can stay over, and there is room for there dogs, or kids to play. We already can see the raised veggie beds. 

We so could use this, keep us in your thoughts and prayers that we get this place. We were the first to app on it, so here is hoping! 

Clocks: Done.
Bordome: Blah.
Scaring the customers with the Presidents of the United States of America: Priceless! +P

Brian and I are planning on going to SAM, on Thursday February 4th. It's there Free Day. Brian and I are meeting Alex, and hanging out. If anyone is interested let us know, or just find us there. =)  We are also planning on hitting the Paramount Tour on Saturday, February 6th. There Free tour starts at 10am, it's about 90min. Join us if your interested. We would love to see people, and be come more historical about Seattle, and stuff. =)

Don't feel bad, studys show today's the most depressinf day in 2010!  Click the link to find out why?

Happy Birthday Brandpa Ray!

I love you, and miss your loving smile.

Kick St.Peter's Butt at Cuibbage! =)

I am taking stuff off the walls; Spent the morning with Evelyn, looking at wedding pic's and telling stories of the past eight years. Then we went out house hunting again, found a great place on 80th and Roosevelt, we shall see what pans out, we are also still waiting on a few other places to get back to us about cats. People are crazy if they think Seattle is not pet friendly. Have you seen the animals around here? =)

Happy Birthday staxxy, enjoy every moment of it!